Releasing MTT

I just took myself on a little journey through the progression of "More Than This" from each version as it was being worked on. It was interesting to hear how it developed from this bare bones demo to the fully formed piece that Richard and I produced that will be released next week. It got me to thinking about this journey over the last few months and how it all came very close to not happening at all. Very, very close.

The five years that I didn't write or perform music were hard. So, so, so hard. Looking back on it now it's hard to believe I ever allowed that to happen. I think about it and ask myself, "Dae, were you absolutely off your head? How could you have done that to yourself?" The contrast between how I felt then versus how I feel now defies any sort of description. There truly is none. The person I am now holds no resemblance to the person I was then. That person, for all intents and purposes, died. I say good riddance to her. She wasn't much good to the world anyway. So... MTT is done. It's coming out next week with the remix. What's next? "Void" is next. As the news posting said, Richard is working on his parts. He'll send those to me, I'll listen to see if there are any edits or suggestions I might make. If none, I'll do my vocals, send all that back to him, he'll mix and master it and so it will go. Meanwhile, Morte McAdaver (Blacksoul Seraphim) is working on his part in our collaborative piece. Once we know what he's doing, Richard will get that track and do his part, it'll come back to me and I'll do my part. It then goes back to Richard and he finishes it off. Richard is always the last stop on the road because he's the one to makes sure it all sounds great. That is why he's here because I trust him and know he will do an amazing job. MTT is a testament to that and it wouldn't be what it is without him. On my own it would've been shit. I listened to my solo version of it before his additions and... no. I wasn't happy with it then, not happy with it now. However, I am notoriously hypercritical of my work. Always have been, always will be. Blame this on being raised by a former US Marine who demanded perfection in everything I did. Literally every damned thing. This is why I am always going... never stopping. My mind is always moving, assessing, looking for what's coming next. As I told Richard, "I'm always thinking 20 steps ahead." It's how shit gets done. It's annoying. Other things on deck... I'm working on a side collab with an artist in Sweden. I won't share the name until things are firmed up.. i.e. I've finished actually recording the vocals just in case I foul up and they don't like what I do. But... I think what I'm coming up with might be cool. Then there are the vocals with Heavenly Creatures and a side engineering project I'm doing for a friend. Of course there are the programs with Leaf Pile Radio... on and on and on it goes... never stopping. This is how things get done. I love it though and I'm thankful that I have the opportunity to be in this position. If you had asked me in August if I would be where I am now I would have laughed at you but August 15th changed everything. There it is and here we are. I couldn't be happier. At least in this.